Good Morning

Good Morning to you! I just woke up and got to hang out with the coolest little angel. I have begun to explore my brain, and think about why I am doing what I have been doing. I woke up and looked around the room to see my big sister, and M. M rolled over and smiled said good morning baby doll as he does every morning, and then asked where his kiss was. This has become an every morning occurence. I LOVE IT! M and I have come to a point in our relationship where I don't think I could go an extended eriod of time without him, puppy love or not it still seems as though it would really hurt to be away from him for to long. I have an opportunity to possibly go study in London for a semester, and I asked him what he thought. He replied that I should go for it, and when it comes time to talk about leaving we will get to it then, because he didn't want to hold me back. This is shocking to me because I've very rarely had a guy put my wants in front of his feelings. This type of behavior has become a everyday thing for him, he puts me first and very rarely asks me for anything. I wonder if this will be a part of our relationship forever, or just a passing puppylove stage? My head is still pretty confused and excited about M becoming part of my life, and it is all still so hard to grip and drag into reality. I swear I am in a coma somewhere and this is all a warped coma dream. I continually ask myself if this is fantasy or reality, and the same answer prevails so far as YEP it is all 100% real. M has brought new found happiness and a whole other family into my life. I now have a big brother and sister that have this beautiful angel i was talking about earlier in the post. I also have gained a crazy ass little brother, and several more people that I know see as my family. These people have fought for me, and stood up for me. These things are foreign to me, and I never knew what it felt like for a guy to stand up for me. M acquired a black eye for me and it was just strange to know that I was the cause for the fight. He didn't care and told me that he would take more than a black eye for me, and that's when I knew or truly believed that M loved me whole heartedly. The last question I leave with for now would be: How do I let go completely, and just let myself be happy when it is all I have ever wanted and I have the man of my dreams, yet still search for the flaws? How do I stop lookin toward the bad, and start focusing on the good?